My Artwork

Meditation for the Day

Be calm, be true, be quiet. Do not get emotionally upset by anything that happens around you. Feel a deep, inner security in the goodness and purpose in the universe. Be true to your highest ideals. Do not let yourself slip back into the old ways of reacting. Stick to your spiritual guns. Be calm always. Do not talk back or defend yourself too much against accusation, whether false or true. Accept abuse as well as you accept praise. Only God can judge the real you.

 6 He that ascended up on high, as also he descendedbelow all things, in that he comprehended all things, that he might be in all and through all things, the light of truth;

 7 Which truth shineth. This is the light of Christ. As also he is in the sun, and the light of the sun, and the power thereof by which it was made.

 8 As also he is in the moon, and is the light of the moon, and the power thereof by which it was made;

 9 As also the light of the stars, and the power thereof by which they were made;

 10 And the earth also, and the power thereof, even the earth upon which you stand.

 11 And the light which shineth, which giveth you light, is through him who enlighteneth your eyes, which is the same light that quickeneth your understandings;

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 if we want to make our best work, we must believe that what we have to say matters. We must believe wholeheartedly in our own vision of the world.

If your life is like a tragedy it is because you have been neglecting something — most likely yourself. All those happy people you see, they know something you don't know. They know about a balanced type of relationship where they are selfish for the sake of others. You have to learn how to take care of yourself. Who you need, is you. It was always about and for you. You're the one you've been looking for; you complete you. If you have never found yourself, the best place to look is in your loneliness, and rock-bottom is even better. Quit looking "out there" for that magical "something" or "someone" to come and rescue you from your tragic loneliness~Bryant McGill

How can I own my power to take care of myself, despite what the other person is or isn't doing?

The Practice of Trust

We place this day in the hands of Trust. Trust that things will turn out exactly as they are suppose to. We set aside everything we’ve been programmed to think we want, and with wholly open minds accept with gratitude everything we will receive. Today we set aside the judgment of our brothers or sisters; trusting that they will complete their journey in the best way they know how. Today we suspend our incessant relationship with time, do the best we can, and trust that we will arrive at His/Her’s exact appointed hour. Today we trust that everything that occurs to us is a gift, assisting us in one way or another, to reach a higher level of consciousness. If we experience stress, we trust that it is occurring in order to help us learn how to deal with such a situation in a less stressful manner. Today we will remember that when we place our day in the hands of Trust, everything, regardless of how much we have been taught otherwise, will go our way. 
James Blanchard Cisneros
Author of the book "You Have Chosen to Remember"ChosenToRemember.com 

"introversion is my greatest strength. I have such a strong inner life that I’m never bored and only occasionally lonely. No matter what mayhem is happening around me, I know I can always turn inward." ~Susan Cain

Expression

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

© Max Ehrmann 1927

Sunday, December 2, 2012

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go

Putting Our Life on Hold

We cannot afford to put our needs on hold, waiting for another person to fulfill us, make our life better, or come around and be who and what we want that person to be. That will create resentment, hostility, an unhealthy dependency, and a mess to deal with later on.

If we have decided we want a particular relationship or want to wait about making a decision in a particular relationship, then we must go on with our own life in the interim.

That can be hard. It can feel natural to put our life on hold. That is when we get caught up in the codependent beliefs: That person can make me happy... I need that particular person to do a particular thing in order to be happy....

That's a circumstance that can hook our low self-esteem, our self-doubt, and our tendency to neglect ourselves.

We can get into this situation in a number of ways. We can do this waiting for a letter, waiting for a job, waiting for a person, waiting for an event.

We do not have to put our life on hold. There will be repercussions from doing this. Go on with your life. Take life a day at a time.

What is something I could be doing now to take care of myself, make myself feel better, get my needs met in an appropriate, healthy way?

How can I own my power to take care of myself, despite what the other person is or isn't doing?

What will happen if I break the system and begin taking care of myself?

Sometimes, we get the answer we want immediately. Sometimes, we wait for a while. Sometimes, things don't work out exactly the way we hoped. But they always work out for good, and often better than we expected.

And in the meantime, we have manifested love for ourselves by living our own life and taking the control away from others. That always comes back to us tenfold, because when we actually manifest love for ourselves, we give our Higher Power, other people, and the Universe permission to send us the love we want and need. Stopping living our life to make a thing happen doesn't work. All it does is make us miserable, because we have stopped living our life.

Today, I will force myself, if necessary, to live my own life. I will act in my own best interest, in a way that reflects self-love. If I have given power or control of my life to someone other than myself, and someone besides a Power greater than myself, I will take it back. I will begin acting in my own best interests, even if it feels awkward to do that.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie

Love endures through the healing...

Triggers happen. Disagreements happen. And it's on the other side of those moments where we have both been able to be ourselves - even if we're mad, frustrated or sad, and come out the other side. When someone loves you after you've shown them that side of you, passion comes, intimacy comes, LOVE blossoms even more. 

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Wisdom for today by Alan Cohen

Why struggle to convince someone of something they're not ready to hear? 

--  Alan Cohen

Joanna Newsom

Teeth- A hate letter to cancer...a love letter to life... my nephews John Grabski III and Benjamin Grabski

 Johnny

belief

Belief consists in accepting the affirmations of the soul; unbelief, in denying them.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson

Don't take things personally

if you feel that other people are only looking for what's wrong in you - can you send them Love and Compassion because you know that this is nothing but a projection of how they feel about themselves and has NOTHING to do with you? This is how we are being called to see the world - with the eyes of Love. We see the innocence; we see the pain of others and we do not take it personally because we know it is just a part of their projection. And, we know that we also project onto others, so we do our best to stop that and to send only Love. Sometimes, you have to send Love from a distance, but send Love anyway!~ Mastin Kipp from the Daily Love

Happy Birthday to my daughter Holly Jean

Happy Birthday Holly Jean I love you so much I never let you off my mind....

Garden Party at Midnight

Garden Party At Midnight
oil on canvas... work in progress

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October Breast cancer month

My painting for the month of October
for breast cancer awareness month
in honor of my Mother, Jane
I Love and miss you so much
will see you again my beautiful Mama ♥

A Ride Back Home

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Denial

The Language of Letting Go... Owning Our Energy

Monday, August 29, 2011

let go of

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go

Owning Our Energy

Learn to keep your energy inside.
—From Women, Sex, and Addiction, Charlotte Davis Kasl, Ph.D.

For many reasons, we may have mastered the art of giving away our energy. We may have learned it when we were young because the feelings we had were too overwhelming to feel, and we did not know how to process them.

Much of our obsessing, our intense focus on others, is done to facilitate this "out of body" experience we call codependency.

We obsess, we babble, we become anxious. We try to control, care take, and fuss over others. Our energy spills out of us on to whomever.

Our energy is our energy. Our feelings, thoughts, issues, love, sexuality; our mental, physical, spiritual, sexual, creative, and emotional energy is ours.

We can learn to have healthy boundaries - healthy parameters - around our energy and ourselves. We can learn to keep our energy within ourselves and deal with our issues.

If we are trying to escape from our body, if our energy is spilling out of us in unhealthy ways, we can ask ourselves what is going on, what is hurting us, what we are avoiding, what we need to face, what we need to deal with.

Then, we can do that. We can come back home to live - in ourselves.

Today, I will keep my energy in my body. I will stay focused and within my boundaries. God, help me my need to escape myself. Help me face my issues so I am comfortable living in my

body.

communication

Spirit Struggle, oil on canvas by Kwhimsical420
Do you often plan out conversations in your head before you have them? Do you go to multiple people for advice on what to say? Do you “backpedal” in your communication meaning you think first about the end result you want and then script a conversation to create that result? Are you being strategic in your conversations more than you are being present and authentic? ~ Christine Hassler

Be Still

Be Still...Acryllic on canvas

The Spirit of Crazy Horse
charcoal on canvas

Emotion

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go

Recognizing Feelings

Experiencing feelings can be a challenge if we've had no previous experience or permission to do that. Learning to identify what we're feeling is a challenge we can meet, but we will not become experts overnight. Nor do we have to deal with our feelings perfectly.

Here are some ideas that might be helpful as you learn to recognize and deal with feelings:

Take out a sheet of paper. On the top of it write, "If it was okay to feel whatever I'm feeling, and I wouldn't be judged as bad or wrong, what would I be feeling?" Then write whatever comes to mind. You can also use the favorite standby of many people in discovering their feelings: writing or journaling. You can keep a diary, write letters you don't intend to send, or just scribble thoughts onto a note pad.

Watch and listen to yourself as an objective third person might. Listen to your tone of voice and the words you use. What do you hear? Sadness, fear, anger, happiness?

What is your body telling you? Is it tense and rigid with anger? Running with fear? Heavy with sadness and grief? Dancing with joy?

Talking to people in recovery helps too. Going to meetings helps. Once we feel safe, many of us find that we open up naturally and with ease to our feelings.

We are on a continual treasure hunt in recovery. One of the treasures we're seeking is the emotional part of ourselves. We don't have to do it perfectly. We need only be honest, open, and willing to try. Our emotions are there, waiting to share themselves with us.

Today, I will watch myself and listen to myself as I go through my day. I will not judge myself for what I'm feeling; I will accept myself.

From Co Dependence the dance of wounded souls

"In order to start be-ing in the moment in a healthy, age-appropriate way it is necessary to heal our "inner child." The inner child we need to heal is actually our "inner children" who have been running our lives because we have been unconsciously reacting to life out of the emotional wounds and attitudes, the old tapes, of our childhoods."

Thought for the day from Todays Gift ~ from Inner Harvest by Elizabeth L

Hurts do heal.

Time has a wonderful way of erasing bad feelings and leaving us with good ones. Our memories are selective, and fortunately, the pleasant ones seem to have more staying power. Whatever has been real and meaningful for us tends to remain with us - the rest gradually fades away. We can assist this selective process of memory by consciously letting go of the thoughts and feelings that disturb our serenity.

You might imagine yourself making a package out of a disappointment, your hostility, some hurt feelings, or whatever is hampering your spirit. Wrap the package tightly and ship it off to a Higher Power. Send it airmail, if you like.

Refusing to dwell on our wounds allows them to heal more quickly. In our program, there is no place for self-pity. The reprieve we have is a daily one, and it depends on our spiritual condition. Gratitude for all the good fortune that comes our way keeps us healthy.

I will remember that what hurts today will pass in time. I can speed its departure by refusing to indulge in self-pity.

Sensitive souls

Sensitive Souls

Great geniuses have the shortest biographies. Their cousins can tell you nothing about them. -James Thurber

In a college psychology class, I was required to read a book subtitled The Mental Institution as a Last Resort. The book's thesis

was that many people in mental institutions are not crazy, but just more sensitive than most people in the society. The authors suggested that many mental patents are simply too finely strung to fit into the mainstream, and an institution is a safe place-similar to an ashram or monasterywhere they can be who they are without having to adapt to a society that is in many ways more insane than they are.

Hilda Charlton noted that souls who are particularly fine-tuned emotionally, artistically, or spiritually are often unable to cope with the heaviness of the world, and so they turn to various addictions to escape. Alcoholics, drug addicts, and many mental patients are highly evolved souls who cannot find comfort, acceptance, or a forum for expression in their worldly circles, so they sedate their sense of homelessness with chemicals or insanity. Indeed, many great artists, musicians, thinkers, inventors, and visionaries have sought to take refuge in addiction or illusion.

A Course in Miracles confirms that we do need to escape from the world we see, for it is not a place of truth or Godliness. But, the Course asserts, we will not find refuge if we follow the promptings of fear; if you must escape, then escape into truth.

In the Hindu culture, holy men and women are revered and cared for by the society. Saints and mystics are not tested, prodded, poked, crossexamined, rationalized, written off, and shunned as they are in the West. In that culture, genuine visionaries are supported to do their spiritual work while people care for their worldly needs and responsibilities.

Let us honor our sensitivity and create a supportive space for talented souls to express our true self.

I pray to create a world in which the gifts of God are respected and empowered.

I express my artistic nature with courage and confidence.~Alan Cohen A Deep Breath Of Life

Daily Meditation

Connect with Source

Anyone who is too busy to pray is too busy. -Anonymous

Imagine a deep-sea diver in a diving suit with a long lifeline connected to his boat at the surface of the ocean. As the diver walks the ocean floor exploring the marvels of the deep, his life-support tube delivers a steady flow of vital oxygen to him. If his air tube becomes clogged or cut off, the diver will be unable to function; he will probably panic, flail, try to return to the surface, or expire.

We are like divers in earth suits, exploring the wonders of life on this planet. The earth is not our home; we are visitors here. Our true nature is not physical, but spiritual. We, too, have a life-support tube, and that is prayer, meditation, or any other form of communion with our Source. If our supply of spirit is cut off, we will not live well or long. Our connection to God is as important to our soul as the diver's supply of air to his body.

Each day, take time to feed your soul. Make your first priority any activity that nourishes your inner being. Pray or meditate, practice tai chi or yoga, walk in nature, play music, dance, read uplifting words, or share meaningful talks with friends. Any activity that renews your spirit is a form of prayer.

Commit to your spiritual practice first. Devote the beginning of your day to self-renewal. Your day will go better, and the time that you invest will pay for itself a thousandfold. Again, before you close your eyes to go to sleep, be with God. Feed your soul; it is your most important meal of the day.

You are my first priority. Knowing You makes all the difference in my life and my world. Knowing You is knowing myself. Be with me today, that I may be with You always.

Nourished by the spirit of love, my heart is whole.~ A Deep Breath of Life by Alan Cohen

Be Who you Are, if you don't ...who then? will be you?

Friday, October 1, 2010

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go

Be Who You Are

In recovery; we're learning a new behavior. It's called Be Who You Are.

For some of us, this can be frightening. What would happen if we felt what we felt, said what we wanted, became firm about our beliefs, and valued what we needed? What would happen if we let go of our camouflage of adaptation? What would happen if we owned our power to be ourselves?

Would people still like us? Would they go away? Would they become angry?

There comes a time when we become willing and ready to take that risk. To continue growing, and living with ourselves, we realize we must liberate ourselves. It becomes time to stop allowing ourselves to be so controlled by others and their expectations and be true to ourselves - regardless of the reaction of others.

Before long, we begin to understand. Some people may go away, but the relationship would have ended anyway. Some people stay and love and respect us more for taking the risk of being whom we are. We begin to achieve intimacy, and relationships that work.

We discover that who we are has always been good enough. It is who we were intended to be.

Today, I will own my power to be myself.

A 3 Dimensional Painting

I Had a really beautiful experience I want to share......Sunday after church and it had been a very powerful sacrament meeting, sunday school studying Isaiah and wonderful lesson in Relief Society which is the women's hour......... and as the sun was going down I was out in the yard still in my church dress and there were beautiful breezes the ones that are so soft on your skin...and nature was calling..come look over here.......I went to get not a camera but a chair.....I immersed myself in the beauty of the sky as if it were a movie......The pink clouds had sunlit edges and were drifting and floating slowly across the sky carried by the soft southern breezes.... everything, the sky, the clouds, were all in layers just like a painting!!!!! as I sat there in total peace and blissfully content, one lone bird flew across my magnificent picture!! tying it all together in a 3 dimensional sort of way!!!!! It was a beautiful catch your breath moment, and only for a moment, if I were not still and waiting I would have missed it!!!!!! there was no other birds as my next thought was oh there will be many birds fly across but no there were not.... only this one.....A gift From Heavenly Father to me, this painting. oh how thankful I am ♥

Thought for the Day -- Hazelden

Sunday, September 26, 2010

You are reading from the book Twenty Four Hours a Day Hardcover (24 Hours)

A.A. Thought for the Day

Continuing the consideration of the term spiritual experience: "The acquiring of an immediate and overwhelming God consciousness, resulting in a dramatic transformation, though frequent, is by no means the rule. Most of our spiritual experiences are of the educational variety, and they develop slowly over a period of time. Quite often friends of newcomers are aware of the difference long before they are themselves. They finally realize that they have undergone a profound alteration in their reaction to life and that such a change could hardly have been brought about by themselves alone." Is my outlook on life changing for the better?

Meditation for the Day

Look at the world as your Father's house. Think of all people you meet as guests in your Father's house, to be treated with love and consideration. Look at yourself as a servant in your Father's house, as a servant of all. Think of no work as beneath you. Be ever ready to do all you can for others who need your help. There is gladness in God's service. There is much satisfaction in serving the highest that you know. Express your love for God in service to all who are living with you in your Father's house.

Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may serve others out of gratitude to God. I pray that my work may be a small repayment for His grace so freely given me.

A whisper soft kiss felt amidst a conversational gathering. yet not their lips but their spirits embrace.....this one eternal moment of reaching deeply..... into the heart of a far away place....they who have lost their way are found in this dance.... and have yet still a glimpse... of one more chance.... her eyes looked lovingly up from a dream...your soul tells the story from the depths of your blue..... the aching longing the pleadings of you............... A yearning to believe.... they are not wrong.... they are different ..........change.......KJB

The Giving Tree step stool

First done digitally ...how I saw it on the stool
and then the actual painting on the stool, I really
like the tree digitally and had more space to give it that giving leaning look than I did on the actual stool

Dreaming. A Distraction Painting

Dreaming. A Distraction Painting

Dreaming. A Distraction Painting

A Distraction painting
As I looked around at the trees and the sweeping leaves.
everything was the giving tree
then I found myself due to deadline, pressure or just my life...
unable to paint, unable to paint what I saw in my mind.
after talking with a friend she encouraged me to paint in exercise
just sweeping strokes........this came from the sweeping
It is a painting of a dream I have had recurring in childhood
I fly over the trees and fields.there is no fear, even though I am afraid of heights
but I am not far from the ground either , just soaring over and looking down
I like to note also the orange healing energy coming out of the top of my head
not intended, but much of the things in my painting are not ;)

Garden Party

The welcoming Dancing ♫ Monarch.....
The Sunflower beckons........
and the Lady bug just is ♥
The Garden P`A`R`T`Y

On Joy And Sorrow by Kahil Gibran

Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.

Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

Thank You Heavenly Father for my Blessings

I should try to practice the presence of God. I can feel that He is with me and near me, protecting and strengthening me always. In spite of every difficulty, every trial, every failure, the presence of God suffices. Just to believe that He is near me brings strength and peace. I should try to live as though God were beside me. I cannot see Him because I was not made with the ability to see Him else there were no room for faith. But I can feel His spirit with me. ~ Twenty four Hours a day

This incredibly beautiful and powerful manifestation of God was with me on my walk home the other night following a beautiful downpour of rain....I was in awe, and as I kept following it and taking pictures, a car turned in front of me and I heard in a voice full of the appreciation of the same feeling as I had " isn't it beautiful!!!!!!!? As I turned away from the sky to see who the person sharing my world at this moment looked like.... his eyes were lit up in wonder, gratitude and amazement.....He reminded me of my nephew Hash....the connection of our spirits...in that fleeting moment.....brought together on a spiritual plane not connected to anything or anyone but the rainbow with all its magnificent power!!!! colors!!!! and glory!!! Then as I proceed on.. the last of the sun is outlining a huge mountainous cloud, and the last of the colors of the day were fading but soft and wondrous....now the moon is coming out, and it is still light enough to see a huge bird soaking wet in the top of the tree I am trying to capture..... I was so invigorated in spirit after this truly blessed walk......the same walk I do every night....but alas the many surprises this night :D

Todays Gift

Thought for the Day

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

You are reading from the book Today's Gift

I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
—William Butler Yeats

When we hold a piece of crystal to the light, it paints rainbows on the wall. When we tap it lightly with a spoon, it sings like a bell. But when we drop it, it shatters in colorless, silent pieces on the floor.

Human beings, sometimes to our amazement, can be as fragile as glass. It's especially easy to forget what makes people we live with or have known for a long time shine or sing. We take for granted the very qualities that made us love them in the first place.

When we forget how to see and hear the people we love, how to appreciate them, we grow careless. Too often, from sheer neglect, the relationship between us grows dull and silent, then slips, falls, and shatters. Paying attention to other people's needs and feelings can prevent this.

Whose presence can I appreciate today?