I am staying positive, by looking at my painted sunflower, I am happy, even though I am sad, I know tomorrow the sun will shine, at least some point in the day :) my aching heart is only for today because it is Sunday, and like Johnny Cash sings there is something in a Sunday that makes the body feel alone.My daughter Holly is due today July 26th to have her first child, and I want so much to be there around the corner waiting...... not way far away like I am. She is having a girl and her name is Lainey Jane. My daughter Jill is having her third child on August 31 and she too is having a girl and her name is Ehvinn Grace, Jill
came up with this name herself, like Heaven she told me.
My heart filled with joy and love when I heard her sweet voice
say it so softly. Sometimes I hear in my heart, Why are you here?
especially when I talk to my girls, and they are so far away
I am filled with aching and longing to go back and stand by
what I always said.....that I would never leave the state where they are.
but I can't do that, so I will trust I am today where I am supposed to be......
why..... I don't know, perhaps the reason will manifest, perhaps not
maybe one day will find me living near my daughters again
and this will have all been a dream......or seem like it.......
